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goodnight…

Goodnight step 2 and tomorrow we will say hello to step 3.  I didn’t want to say goodbye to step 2, cause I will never be done with each step.  The steps are something that I will work over and over, I will not get the true meaning the first time.  I know that just like the books I reread or the movies I re-watch, I will pick up something new each time.  I hear it from the members in my home group and I know that is what is in my heart.

So just as I did for step 1, here is my poll for step 2.

If no one has told you they love you today, I love you and God does too!

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Could…

Taken from my comment on Rex’s post about “We Can’t Think Our Way Sober’

I like how step 2 says “could restore us to sanity”  Could is a very important word there, because it starts with us.  We have to admit, then we have to believe and then we can begin to be restored to sanity if we can let go and let “god” (as we understood him) restore us.

Our Higher Power could restore us to sanity, that whats I have to always remember.  That I still need to do my part so that I can be restored.  If my higher power is to be able to assist me in any way, I have to be able to let go of what it is that is troubling me.  And honestly let go, I will sometimes say I let go of something but am still holding onto a strand of it.  Not wanting to give up full control over the outcome, when truth is I have never had control over the outcome from the beginning but I thought I did.  I still have a bit of an issue doing this, but I am getting better.  The hardest thing to do this with is when we have bad weather or my migraines.  I try to panic about the bad storm and try to think out all the outcomes and worry about stuff that has not happened yet.  With my migraines I worry about what others will think if I can’t do something or want to lay down for a while.  Can not change how they see me and if I have to go lay down, then that’s what I have to do.  I will pray that my higher power helps me though the storm either outside or in my head and then I sit back and wait for the rainbow.
I can’t think my way out of the migraine, that might just make it worse.  I can’t expect my husband to out think his addiction, we both tried it and it didn’t work.  I am happy that his recovery and my recover from that part is well underway and we are both doing so well.  We both have come so far.  But I just with the migraines would try to catch up on the recover process.  But all I can do it take life one day at a time, so in turn all I can do is take it one migraine at a time as well.  I worried all the time that if I got sick like my mom or if the migraines got any worse that he would leave me.  Why would he want to stay with a sick person?  Well I stayed with him while he was sick, all I can do is have faith that he will be there and my higher power will be there.  I need to not keep my fears inside and learn to give up control to the ones who truly have control over them.

If no one has told you they love you today, I love you and God does too!

We Can’t Think Our Way Sober

“To the intellectually self-sufficient man or woman, many A.A’s can say, “Yes, we were like you- far too smart for our own good…. Secretly, we felt we could float above the rest of the folks on our brain power alone.” (As Bill Sees It, pg. 60)

Wow, if this doesn’t describe me, and almost every addict and alcoholic I know, I don’t know what does. I cannot recall (Full blown honesty here) any time during my use of drugs or alcohol, where I thought I of myself was incapable of beating the addiction on my own. I thought I had it down pat, and that I knew the limits and strains of my body as well as the time and place that I could stop using.

Every addict out there (And if you disagree, you are in a hard level of denial) knows that we have vehemently affirmed that we could stop when we wanted to, only to find that we were back on the bottle, or pill or whatever the particular addiction. We had such polished resolve, and a foundation of surety that we were certain that we were going to stop- yet we found ourselves back at the bottom of the issue, and nearly in trouble if we were not already.

Well, here is some hard facts. We THOUGHT we had control of our lives. We THOUGHT we had managed our addiction and our lives, and we THOUGHT that the way we were doing things was intellectually sufficient. We were dead wrong. Steps 1 and 2 prove this to us in a landslide of evidence, of which to see one needs only to be truthfully introspective. Let us review: (Step 1 was spoken of in great detail, and the focus last month, and Step 2 is the focus of this month)

1. We admitted that we were powerless over alcohol- That our lives had become unmanageable.

2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

So, I’d like to link up how the title of this blog, “We Can’t Think Ourselves Sober” and Step 2 “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity” go hand in hand. If we truly affirm that a Power greater than ourselves can restore us to sanity, then we are affirming that we of ourselves have failed to do so. To the average reader, or one not familiar with the program, you may say “Well Duh!”, but you must understand that when addiction is the focal point of any topic- the obvious solutions become the most obscure and difficult to achieve. Why it is this way to the addict is yet to be fully explained, but rest assured, we addicts will get the picture one day or face the other 3 solutions- Jails, Institutions or Death.

I have never been able to do it on my own, and it was only when I allowed my Higher Power, a.k.a God, to manage things for me when things finally started to change. This should sum it up for me today:

“I came to KNOW that GOD will restore me to sanity…. if I let Him

God Bless You Friends!

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