Archive for April, 2013
Our thoughts and prayers go out to those affected by today’s Bombing in New England.
With spring comes new life, new growth and for most of us – spring cleaning! Its only fitting that the 4th step is also about cleaning out the cob webs.
Step 4:
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
I am still working on my 4th step and can’t believe that it’s been a year already that I have been working on it. I should go back and see what I wrote a year ago. See how much I have changed. Filling out the adoption/foster care application was like doing a 4th step. You had to go all the way back to your child hood and give them an insight into why you are the person you are today and if that person is the correct fit to be a parent of a child in need of a home. I have taken a few months off from even looking at my Blue Print for Progress book. The 4th step work book for Al-Anon. But I have been doing so many other things right now that the 4th step has taken a back seat for the moment. Not forgotten, just set to the side. Everyday I can do the 10th step to keep my 4th step from getting any bigger.
Today is the 3rd class in our adventure of becoming parents. I also started a journal so I can put down all my thoughts and fears and feelings through this process so she knows what we went through to get her. most parents can tell the kids how they were born, I can share with her the story of how she came to be a member of our family. And it will be in my own words, as it’s going on, not in 10 years when I am trying to go off memory.
The little sticker I found
Monday I was feeling kinda blue about the adoption thing because of all the rules and the things we have to do on their time frame when a child is placed with us….just stuff going around in my head that I was letting fester there. And I came back from talking to a co-worker, on the floor in front of my desk – right where I have been walking all day long was a flower sticker that’s all glittery and girly. I picked it up, closed my eyes and said thank you to my higher power. I needed that right then and there. Sometimes when I forget to get all that crap out of my head it can really make my thinking go to crap. My Higher Power reminded me that my little girl is out there somewhere just waiting for Hubby and I to be available for her to come home. I can’t wait to give that little girl a forever home. If you would like to get updates on our journey please head over to We Wished For You and follow it. I am trying to keep up with all 4 web blogs. I don’t post on all of them everyday, but I don’t want to post just to post.
I need to sit down and work on my 4th step again, I also need to try to make it to a meeting again. Its been about 3 weeks since my last one. If I miss this week that will be a whole month. But one late night a week is already almost too much. It really takes a toll on me not getting to bed at my normal time. Sleep schedules are very important to someone who has chronic migraines. I know that having a child means that my sleep will be interrupted on more than one night a week, but that is something that I will work on when it happens. For now I am just trying not to blow through that much PTO for a self-caused migraine.
How many of you have done your 4th step or are working on it? Please feel free to sound off in the comments Box. If you are not sure where to start with your 4th step and you are working the Al-anon program – or even if you would just like to do a 4th step, the Blue Print for Progress book is a very good place to start. I got mine off Amazon.
Related articles
- April 1, 2013 – Step by Step (cmmacneil.typepad.com)
- April 1, 2013 – Step by Step (cmmacneil.wordpress.com)
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